In this week's lesson, I am writing a letter to my "author self", my persona when it comes to writing. To help with this, I read a short story about a country that gives letters to the dead through cracks in the ground, when the rain season ends and the brief season of good weather begins. While I don't really get the theme o the story admittedly, I still think its an interesting story, and I do see how it relates to the letter I am to write, writing to someone who can't reply back, who may not even still be there, but we reach towards each other anyways, even if an ocean of consciousness divides us. And with that, I am going to start my letter. Dear Mason Wilter,
I believe you are there, or at least I hope you are. I have been neglecting you for the past few weeks, and for that I am sorry. I have been meaning to write the latest draft of Dark Forest, but my distraction with Lancer and friends has distracted me, as well as other life stuff. I'm afraid of losing you, like how a mother will lose her child in a crowded mall. I don't want you to leave, I care so much about writing and getting writing done. Sorry, I just don't like losing those I care about, even if they are little more then voices in my head, bouncing off the walls of my mind with each idea sparkling like a dying ember in the palm of my hand. I try to catch as much of my embers in my hand as possible carrying them to the idea center of my brain before they fade forever into the creative void of my mind, nothing but another star in the backdrop of oh so many other ideas.
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The Proust Questionnaire seems to be a questionnaire dedicated to teach people about themselves, as well as help people explain themselves to others in a more in-depth way. My answers are as follow./
1. My idea of perfect happiness is all my desires filled, from the lust for adventure to having a safe, comfy place to live. 2. My greatest fear is disappointing and hurting those around me. 3. I believe my most deplorable trait is my laziness, and reluctance to work. 4. I dislike selfish people, especially those who act smug when being a massive dick. 5. I am unsure, i don't follow much powerful or influential people. I have some inspirations, but they are all dead. 6. My greatest extravagance is my PC, a $2300 computer I built myself. 7. My current state of mind is a bit lazy, but motivated to write for my own story. 8. I think Honor is very much overstated, though I am of the "do whatever it takes to win" opinion. 9. When I think the truth is gonna hurt me or someone else. Often it backfires. 10. I think I'm a bit fat, and I want to slim down more. 11. Donald Trump. He's a demented narcissistic dedicated to ruining everything for those he doesn't like (which is most people). 12. Kindness, while viewed as somewhat more feminine, I feel is an important trait. 13. Bravery is important in woman for me, though beware as the line between bravery and stupidity is blurred. 14. "Like". I tend to use it ala a valley girl. 15. I am unsure. I have trouble with romantic love, most of my love is purely platonic. 16. I was happiest before high school, before depression shot me in the face. 17. The ability to write better, though I suppose that's the point of this class. 18. I would be less afraid of "getting out there", and be more independent and confident in myself. 19. I consider my greatest achievement to be graduating high school, as I suffered the entire way through but still succeeded. 20. A rich person, in the future where technology and virtual reality are better. 21. I'm fine where I am now location wise, in Wayne. 22. Like I said earlier, my PC. 23. When you are so miserable you are willing to break your own testaments and principles. 24. Writing is fun, it helps gets my ideas out there. 25. Principles and rules for myself, where I refuse to break them no matter the cost. 26. Honesty and loyalty, but also willing to tell me when I fuck up. 27. Probably Terry Pratchet, and JC Mccrae. The first was a lot of fun to read, while the latter made me want to write, and also heavily influenced my writing style. 28. Guts from Berserk. Broken, he will not bow. 29. I'm not sure. I want to be like historical badasses like Genghis Khan or Ceaser, but I don't know if I have it in me. 30. Jesus, despite not being religious. He seems like a cool dude. 31. I tend to use Mason, especially for the main character of my story. 32. I dislike cruelty and being a dick for the sake of being a dick. 33. My greatest regret is letting myself fall behind my peers. 34. Comfortably, surrounded by family and loved ones,. 35. "I define myself." |
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